Professionally, I did start succeeding. My classes were not full by any means, but people were showing up, and they were adding classes to their membership just to take the classes I offered. I felt strong, finally. Confident, even, in my new role. I was flourishing.
So maybe you're like me, and came out of training feeling shaky on your feet, almost sea sick. What then? Well, you can do what I did. Sink for a few months. Fall back into old habits and depressions. Drink. I love you, though, and I want more for you than that. As I have come to realize, I have to discover things the hard way. I wish for an easier avenue for you, so here are a few of the lessons, pieces of advice and processes that have pulled me out of difficulty and back into the life I actively chose.
Carry the lesson with you
So here I am, a year after YTT. Life is now back on track, and although the processes haven't gotten any easier to breathe through, and the truths that the Universe offers up are not any easier to swallow, instead of falling backwards into old habits, I'm looking ahead to the possibilities. I'm facing those dark sides of my own being instead of avoiding what they are trying to teach me. The biggest difference in me now, versus a year ago, the difference that all this guidance from the Universe has made in me, is now the "why" of things doesn't matter. It doesn't matter why I need to move through a process or why I don't want to. It doesn't matter why I should or should not do what the Universe tells me, or even why it is telling me. I have learned to release the over analytical side of myself that says the whys must be known before the work begins. Begin the work, and the why will become known. I have learned to enjoy the process, no matter how painful, knowing that I will feel so much lighter when it has concluded. I have learned to celebrate the truths the Universe leads me to, no matter how bitter they taste, realizing that I have gained more knowledge than I have ever known, from simply being willing to listen. I have learned to bask in the wisdom and strength that comes from all this. To let it wash over and heal me, just as the warm waves of the Caribbean did.
Love, Light, and many blessings to you on your journey,
Live your practice on the shores of the Caribbean jungle. Learn to share what you love as you connect with the wild abundance that surrounds us.
In the foothills of the oldest mountains in the world, allow yourself time to reconnect with the space between the breath, movement, and time itself. Step out of your daily life to find solace, then step back in with techniques to maintain space and let breath carry you through your life.